Month: September 2014

Cheap beer and being sad

Ever feel so alone? So deathly alone that it scares you. You see ex after ex getting married and you’re sitting by yourself on your patio with a cheap bottle of beer and The Shins playing on Spotify in the background to make the moment even sadder. Then Deathcab for Cutie comes on to drive the final stake into the sadness coffin.

You have busy days with work and stuff, but no one to come home to and tell your day to. And it takes time to get there even if you do meet someone…awkward dates and meeting parents to endure.

A gloom wave rushed ashore tonight because I found out that Meaghan is getting married next month.  An ex…in my hall of fame of exes because we remained friends for years after we broke up.  I don’t think I ever meant that much to her but she meant a lot to me, and I guess I was okay with that.

For all the fucking around i do…Jessica came over last weekend to give me two handjobs because she likes to do that, I guess. But Meaghan is getting married. I know Kilby went through this with Amanda and Cheney did with her ex. I’ve joined their club now. But Kilby eventually met someone and I never hear from him anymore. Cheney took drugs and forgot about it.

The only solace I found is that Meaghan’s arms looked fat in her engagement picture that I saw tonight. Pathetic of me.